We interrupt this program . . .

I realize that I promised a mini-series about the positive things that I have gained during the IF process. However, I am back to playing the role of sad and bitter infertile. You should have known that the Ms. Suzie Sunshine thing wouldn't last. I do hope to return to the wonderful prospective, wisdom and patience that I have gained during this process -- but not today.

I have begun spotting, which marks the impending arrival of AF (today is day 23 of a 26 day cycle). Therefore, another natural cycle goes bust. Will I look on the bright side -- by Sunday or Monday I should return to RE's office for a baseline u/s and b/w to begin another treatment cycle? Of course not! Since the cysts seem to be hanging on to my ovaries for dear life, I completely lack any optimism about doing another IUI. I honestly have no earthly idea what we will do if the cysts are still there this time around. I have not spoken with anyone at RE's office about our game plan and I'm pretty flipping pissed off! I am considering changing RE's, I know it's early in the process but I need more attention!

More later . . .