Bad Blogger

I've been a bad, bad blogger.

But I'd like to thank all of you, who continue checking in on me, despite my long absence. You are truly a phenomenal group of women and I sincerely hope that great things lie ahead for each and every one of you.

Also, I'd like to congratulate all of you who are now either pregnant, actively pursuing adoption or have become moms! I am so happy that things are working out for so many of you.

As for me, it's been a rocky ride. Oct. and Nov. were awful months. I was tested for every ailment under the sun. They. found. nothing. Just endo. I lost 20 pounds. I skipped work. I took painkillers. We cancelled our IVF cycle. In Dec. and Jan., I went away for a few weeks and visited my parents. They live outside of the US and were very concerned about my health. While staying with my folks, I sat on my butt and did nothing. I was literally waited on hand and foot. I even visited my parents' holistic doctor. I slowly began feeling better. I returned to the States, hubby and work in late January. I am still not 100% (taking pain meds a few times a week) but I am probably as good as I'm gonna get.

So today I returned to Dr. L's office to pursue IVF. Because I've been on continuous BCPs since October, I may actually be able to begin Lupron injections on Sunday! WOW! Our tentative schedule (assuming that I am able to stim after being on BCPs for so long and everything goes smoothly) would have us doing ER and ET before the end of April. It's totally unbelievable.

But yes, we are ready to move forward and hopefully, there is a little baby (or 2) waiting at the end of the road for us. And somehow, I feel more at peace about this whole baby business. I'm not crying about it. I can happily embrace my friends' babies. I think I am in a much better place. So thank goodness for that.