Friday, April 20, 2007

Good Night, Ladies

After having been away for so long, it's kinda hard to know where to begin. Some may recall that I removed my last post about our very sad failed attempt at an ET. A few may even remember that my husband and I fought the day before our scheduled ET and he refused to accompany me to the procedure the next day. My doctor was kind enough to postpone the ET but David and I were unable to resolved our problems. Hurt and weary, I left my home and fled the country. I went away to visit my parents. While out of the country, I learned that our embroyos never made it to freeze. After all of the drugs and the tears and the hope and the pain, it had been a complete and utter waste.

Of course, how long can one hide from the world and their problems? After much love and TLC, I returned to the States and David and I attempted to rebuild our fragile relationship. Sadly, the counselor, the prayers and heart to hearts didn't work. I simply could not continue. We contemplated separation in September. I put the house on the market in November, David moved out soon after Thanksgiving and before the New Year the house had been sold. I was offered a position with a new company in another city and relocated in mid-January. I have officially begun a new life.

David and I still call each other. Sometimes those calls leave me filled with sadness, but somehow without regret. I have decided to begin again without the bags that were weighing me down, somewhat tired but tougher and stronger for having been through so much.


At 4:23 AM, Blogger Thalia said...

Oh sweetie you've had such a tough time, I am sorry. Sounds like things are moving forward, albeit slowly and in a tough way to deal with. I hope the new life starts to become what you really need.


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